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one.
it always amazes me
each year
that you call.
always. on the dot
to ring in the new years.
literally.
pun intended.
the last two beginnings
have been lonely.
2013? not so much.
i'm almost happy,
i think.
but then i realize
happiness is created,
much like art
according to Charles Bukowski.
the three months i spent in DC
were the most magical times of my life
and i never wanted it to end
so i ended it
deliberately.
four.
truth be told,
i'm a terrible friend
and a terrible person.
i'm not saying it to make excuses.
i'm trying my hardest
and she sees it
but still, she tells me
otherwise.
when i was five, i didn't
have to try as hard
to make her smile but
somewhere along the years
that smile fell off.
she calls it disappointment.
i think she resents me.
the six months that we didn't speak
in junior year
were perhaps the longest months
in my life
and it hurt that you would choose
some other girl over me, who you called
family
and so i forgave you when you came back.
but i'm still punishing you.
i'm sorry...
ish.
seven
was the beginning to an end.
i discovered that
everyone else thinks
and the world wasn't mine
and the discovery was painful
and painless.
all at once
the eight things i could
tell you about me are
1. i'm childish
2. i'm superficial
3. i like using and a lot
4. this one time, you told me
you hated chocolate and so
i've been hating chocolate since.
5. i'm easily swayed.
6. i'm easy. period.
7. i think about nothing a lot.
8. i like baths.
nine
this poem is proving a lot harder than i thought.
ten is for the boy who knows
this is about him because it's always been
and it's a childish crush
a weird sort of feeling
that i need his approval.
i don't.
but i sorta do.
eleven.
sometimes, i'm terrified that if i told you
what i really felt
you'll disappear too
because you've become
one
of the most important people in my life
but you're just a faceless face,
and you were just
a voiceless voice.
twelve. was the stroke of midnight
and i downed champagne to welcome
twenty-thirteen
was rang in, per tradition
and my first meal of the year was
a bite off a friend's street skewer
and i walked down the steep ass steps
of the Shelter in heels
and climbed the winding stairs to the Apt.
and my biggest achievement was that
i didn't fall.
it always amazes me
each year
that you call.
always. on the dot
to ring in the new years.
literally.
pun intended.
the last two beginnings
have been lonely.
2013? not so much.
i'm almost happy,
i think.
but then i realize
happiness is created,
much like art
according to Charles Bukowski.
the three months i spent in DC
were the most magical times of my life
and i never wanted it to end
so i ended it
deliberately.
four.
truth be told,
i'm a terrible friend
and a terrible person.
i'm not saying it to make excuses.
i'm trying my hardest
and she sees it
but still, she tells me
otherwise.
when i was five, i didn't
have to try as hard
to make her smile but
somewhere along the years
that smile fell off.
she calls it disappointment.
i think she resents me.
the six months that we didn't speak
in junior year
were perhaps the longest months
in my life
and it hurt that you would choose
some other girl over me, who you called
family
and so i forgave you when you came back.
but i'm still punishing you.
i'm sorry...
ish.
seven
was the beginning to an end.
i discovered that
everyone else thinks
and the world wasn't mine
and the discovery was painful
and painless.
all at once
the eight things i could
tell you about me are
1. i'm childish
2. i'm superficial
3. i like using and a lot
4. this one time, you told me
you hated chocolate and so
i've been hating chocolate since.
5. i'm easily swayed.
6. i'm easy. period.
7. i think about nothing a lot.
8. i like baths.
nine
this poem is proving a lot harder than i thought.
ten is for the boy who knows
this is about him because it's always been
and it's a childish crush
a weird sort of feeling
that i need his approval.
i don't.
but i sorta do.
eleven.
sometimes, i'm terrified that if i told you
what i really felt
you'll disappear too
because you've become
one
of the most important people in my life
but you're just a faceless face,
and you were just
a voiceless voice.
twelve. was the stroke of midnight
and i downed champagne to welcome
twenty-thirteen
was rang in, per tradition
and my first meal of the year was
a bite off a friend's street skewer
and i walked down the steep ass steps
of the Shelter in heels
and climbed the winding stairs to the Apt.
and my biggest achievement was that
i didn't fall.
Literature
Rosebush
If I were to tell you,
"Life is not a bed of roses."
Would you still continue
To pull the weeds from beneath the rows?
If I said,
"There are some wounds that cannot heal."
Would you still reach between the brambles
And allow the thorns to pierce your skin?
Were I to mention,
"Even the brightest of flowers
Will eventually succumb to time."
Would you still cut the heads
In preparation for the new spring buds?
You simply smile and say;
"Yes.
For even the most vapid vine deserves to be cultivated.
Only then can it bloom
And truly enjoy its time in the sun."
Literature
Rhapsodic
I’ve lost my superpower –
of wordplay
It’s abandoned me and left me choking on vacant letters,
Stealing my brand of “wordsmith”
And
Labeling me simply as a lack-luster charlatan.
I’m vomiting synonyms
And
I’m tripping on definitions
In ways that I never have stumbled before.
This chasm –
This deep, empty, aching grave in my soul
Is screaming and pleading and gasping and trembling
To reconstitute this dried up talent
In the light of my ever-present denial of tragedy.
Once a zealot,
Always an addict;
You see, I yearn
to do nothing more than to load a syringe with ripe syllables,
Literature
Lies
Do you lie in your sleep?
When you exhale, do the lies just tumble out?
Does a lie always inhabit the tip of your tongue?
Ready to run free at a moment’s notice?
Because it seems all I hear from you lately
Are lies
Lie after lie
Do you even know you’re telling them?
Or do you mean what you say in the moment and later contemplate on your words and decide otherwise?
Do you care that you hurt me?
With every word cutting deeper into the tough skin I thought I had formed
But then you come with your charm and your knife
And you cut
And cut
I don’t even notice the bleeding, lost in your eyes
Until you’re gone
Then I notice
happy 2013.
© 2013 - 2024 rebel-brat
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So maybe you can't tell them what you really feel. But maybe someday you'll be able to tell me. I'd really like that
I really like this, by the way. It's really a whole lot of you. The whole thing just reminded me of you. To me, it smelt like you, I heard it in your voice, they were your words, if this were braille, your skin would feel like this; to me, this is you.
One of the traits that I've always admired in you is that you never have fallen. You just spend a lot of time stumbling.
I really like this, by the way. It's really a whole lot of you. The whole thing just reminded me of you. To me, it smelt like you, I heard it in your voice, they were your words, if this were braille, your skin would feel like this; to me, this is you.
One of the traits that I've always admired in you is that you never have fallen. You just spend a lot of time stumbling.