un-words

i try to write my heart into words,
but i guess my brain just isn't wired for
sparks and fire i am all feeling without emotions
and standing in twilight, i'm alone, again, but not really.

i wish i could make you understand
the thoughts and fissions in my mind,
emitting dreams i am admitting
my flaws and mistakes; so flawed
and still just a girl, i could take on the world
if i really tried, you know

there are missions and visions
and i'm still full of childish whimsy
so if you could, hear me out
and i'll scream for you to see
that everything you want is just in
the palm of your hands and cliched still,
my words.

i try to burn vision into umber
and stillness is a quiet i remember,
and so i write verses that cannot be used:
standing alone in this broken field-
a billion thoughts littered in my mind
i am mosaic:
undefined.

so i write my heart into words
trying to strum notes into love
and you cradle me in your dreams
the unknown face of civility:
darling, hush now, soon you'll see
i am dreams and reality.
unworded.